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What is change? 27 June 2023 Our time in the Netherlands is coming to an end, and when I read that my dear friend @mirjam.christine.hope was hosting a session around change, I knew I had to be part of it. Change. It feels like my life at this moment is change only. Big changes only. Transitions in life. The one is me transitioning to being a mother, and with that a change in almost all relationships. The relationship with myself […]
She is Alive 2 February 2023 Half a year in.. It is with the greatest joy and gratitude that I would like to introduce our beautiful and courageous daughter Aya Rose. She came into this world on the 2nd of August at 17:38, roaring with life. Some of you might have read my previous blog, the one I wrote half a year after the stillbirth of our first baby, our son Jade. While I was writing that specific blog (which […]
Life Transitions 6 April 2022 I have been thinking a lot lately about life transitions. More specifically about navigating through life transitions. Those times in your life where your foundation is swept away. The major upheavals in life, where everything feels uncertain and change and uncertainty are the only constants in your daily life. Life transitions like a new job, stepping into a serious relationship, being confronted with death, divorce or break up or a move to a new home. […]
The Pains and Powers of baby loss 30 November 2021 When I was asked to write something for the fertility clinic in Cape Town about losing our baby Jade I felt an instant yes, and also an insecurity and vulnerability rising up. The journey of healing through stillbirth, as I like to call the journey, is not an easy one, and there are so many layers, so where do I start? The instant yes came from deep inside because I […]
Cherish Stone 13 October 2021 A bronze Cherish Stone with Jade’s ashes I feel so lucky to have met so many amazing women in my life. I am going to be honest, it took a while to open myself fully up to intimate relationships with women. I have had my struggles and somehow I often just thought friendships with boys/men were easier. I guess because they seem less complicated and in my experience had less expectations ;). I know now […]
Birthing death 11 October 2021 Birthing death This might be one of the most vulnerable posts to write. One of the most triggering maybe. And also one of the most important ones if you ask me. I have birthed death. Up to now I have two other sisters say these words out loud. Two second trimester babies that were birthed without a heartbeat. By now I know that a woman goes through the same stages as I have been going […]
I allow myself to be held 10 October 2021 In these four months I haven’t read a lot about grieving, mainly because I feel and I have felt that it takes me away from my own experience. Every now and then I came across some inspiring articles or posts that somehow have a different and inspiring view. The same with people. It has been so refreshing to for example meet our new GP that just blew our minds, he did […]